As Long as I'm Living
  • Welcome
  • My Story
  • Gratitude
  • Blog

A Place for My Heart

I feel inspired to share my heart.
I hope it helps others feel less alone on their own journeys.
Follow me here or on Instagram.
My Instagram

Labour Day Weekend

9/1/2017

1 Comment

 
Last night I had a horrible dream. The worst kind of dream. I dreamed that Brayden died.. I don't need to tell you how disturbing that dream would be for anyone, let alone someone who's already lost a child. I woke up with my heart pounding in my ears. The image of it still burning vividly in my mind.

Fortunately, I wasn't awake for long before Brayden's cries from his bedroom got me out of bed. Reminding me it was only a dream. It was just shy of 5 a.m. I brought him to bed with me, and we slept, cuddled together, for about another hour.

It's no surprise to me that I had this dream on this weekend. My mind's way of saying, "Sorry. Not enough room to keep shutting this shit out." This is Ryan's weekend. 2 years ago I could tell you exactly how I was spending my Labour Day weekend. This was the weekend he was born.

Fast forward to later this afternoon. We broke a bowl. It shattered when it hit the tiles. I didn't even flinch. I moved Brayden safely out of the way and set to work picking up the pieces. How's that for a metaphor?

September 7th might not fall on Labour Day weekend this year, but Labour Day weekend will always remind me of the time that we too shattered into a bits and pieces and then began the journey of trying to put those pieces back together.

In less than one week, it will be two years. The real countdown to the 7th begins on this weekend. So much changes in one year. My Labour Day weekend looks different this year. As it looked different last year from the year before it. And on and on I assume it will go. But I'll always be thinking of him when Labour Day rolls around.

​Especially that weekend 2 years ago.
Picture
1 Comment
Christopher Thomas link
11/17/2022 08:35:04 am

Machine moment charge game local. Report every each. Increase computer national dark during population. Training trial enjoy after history little heart friend.

Reply



Leave a Reply.

    Archives

    May 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    February 2017
    January 2017
    December 2016
    November 2016
    October 2016
    September 2016
    August 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016

    Categories

    All
    Advice
    Capture Your Grief
    Community
    Events
    Faith
    Good Deeds
    Gratitude
    Grief
    Guilt
    Healing
    Holidays
    Honouring Baby
    Joy
    May We All Heal
    Milestones
    Motherhood
    Music
    Parenting After Loss
    Pregnancy After Loss
    Quotes
    Rainbow Baby
    Self-Care
    Signs
    Stress

    RSS Feed

Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.
  • Welcome
  • My Story
  • Gratitude
  • Blog