MWAH Day 6: Patience

Song: Patience
Artist: Take That

This is another song I hadn't heard before now. It's a cheesy 90s pop song from an English boy band, so please cut it some slack. But a quick search lead me to it and the lyrics so perfectly describe the way I felt all throughout the first year without Ryan. I just needed people -- everyone -- to be patient with me. Every single day of that first year, especially, was so new to me. And then, factoring in getting pregnant with Brayden, well... I was pretty much all over the place. I don't think I would be where I am today without the patience of those who love me. I was given the space and the time and the freedom to grieve and heal in the ways that made the most sense for me. Whether by writing, connecting with people online, practicing yoga, reading books at the cemetery, creating a garden... I was, and am, treated with such patience when it comes to grieving Ryan. And I'm so grateful for that.

Lyrics:
Just have a little patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop.

Just hold me close inside your arms tonight
Don't be too hard on my emotions.

[Chorus:]
'Cause I need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong
Believe me I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me.

[Chorus]

'Cause the scars run so deep
It's been hard but I have to believe
Just have a little patience [x2]

[Chorus]

Have a little patience
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
Just try and have a little patience