As Long as I'm Living
  • Welcome
  • My Story
  • Gratitude
  • Blog

A Place for My Heart

I feel inspired to share my heart.
I hope it helps others feel less alone on their own journeys.
Follow me here or on Instagram.
My Instagram

Where I Find Healing

3/3/2016

0 Comments

 
I have found healing in the funniest places. Places I wouldn't have expected for myself. Sitting on the floor of the nursery. Writing my heart out every day. Instagram. In the hearts of "strangers."

And in all things creative.

I have taken on quite a few "creative projects" since losing Ryan, and each one was done lovingly in his memory. A shadow box of flowers. A candle with his name. A photo book of every pregnancy memory I have. Stocking tags. Tree ornaments.

Some projects were more successful than others. (I definitely hid the horrendous ornament we created toward the back of the tree -- and there it'll always hang I'm sure, since I can't seem to part with things that are his -- no matter how hideous!) 

But every project has given me a sense of closeness to him. A sense of mothering him. And every time I feel close to him, or feel I've been a real mom to him, I feel a little bit more healed.
"Healing doesn't mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls our life."
I'm a long way from feeling like I'm "healed." And maybe I'll never be completely whole again. But the pieces of my heart that I have left are mending. Little by little. And even though some days are still so, so hard and devastating, and I sometimes give in to my grief and let it carry me a while, I refuse to let it control me completely.

​So I get creative. And get carried away in that. Whatever works, right?
Picture
0 Comments



Leave a Reply.

    Archives

    May 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    February 2017
    January 2017
    December 2016
    November 2016
    October 2016
    September 2016
    August 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016

    Categories

    All
    Advice
    Capture Your Grief
    Community
    Events
    Faith
    Good Deeds
    Gratitude
    Grief
    Guilt
    Healing
    Holidays
    Honouring Baby
    Joy
    May We All Heal
    Milestones
    Motherhood
    Music
    Parenting After Loss
    Pregnancy After Loss
    Quotes
    Rainbow Baby
    Self-Care
    Signs
    Stress

    RSS Feed

Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.
  • Welcome
  • My Story
  • Gratitude
  • Blog